So it's time for my yearly update. lol. not really i do need to make more than just one post a day. So anyway, time has passed by and i'm no longer the 15 year old i was when i first discovered this blog site. I'm 19 and a half now. yep. almost 20. wow. i feel old. Anyway, struggles i dealt with when i was as you'd say a little bit "younger" seem almost stupid now. childish in a sense that i wanna share it with you. 1) I used to cry everyday over some guy i had the biggest crush on in 9th grade. 2) I used to think i'd grow up in acting cuz my brother chose directing as his career, i guess i figured he'd build my career up. 3) I struggled and cried and worked so hard to be in team that has had a great affect on me now but almost seems like a waste of time. 4) i used to be afraid of what awaited me after high school. 5) I tried hard to make friends not enemies. 6) work "used" to be a piece of cake at Taco Bell well compared to now. 7) When i first started blogging, i didnt have the slightest clue what having a boyfriend meant...
Now that i'm almost 20 i can now say that...
1) That high school 9th grade crush was almost funny. it wouldve never worked :) He's still a great friend to this day we dont talk much but his appearance and role in my life has changed me so far made me stronger but not so...you'll understand if you take a read at my other overly dramatic posts. lol.
2) Please... come on now... i'm an Entertainment media production major. :) Acting just wasn't for me.. at all... :).
3) Color guard was difficult in high school but it paid off. makes UNA color guard a piece of cake. but still a lot of hard hard work trust me.
4) I never thought i'd make it this far in life. sure i had my hopes and high dreams but who would've known they'd come true. now that i'm about to be in my second year at college i cant wait to see what awaits me in the near future.
5) That one went out the window long ago. lol. everyone has their enemies. some worse than others but shit happens right? :)
Cassandra Moya still sucks big cock tho. lmfao. bitch.
6) I no longer work at TB in fact i've had 3 other jobs after that. one in which i still work at...Claire's. Ive been working at claire's for about a year and a month now and i still get treated like a baby that doesnt know anything. Yet, i know more than the store manager herself. and I dont get told anything till last minute. how does that make sense?! Paige that has been there 6 months already got promoted to the galleria mall in Birmingham. Sure she didnt take it she's only 19 and still lives at home but the opportunity... of having been offered such a great position...wow. i mean wow. i'm still a third key. not even lead third key. lol. and i've been loyal and nothing but dependent for them. It just sucks, everyone keeps asking me "Annabel...why do you take their crap? They're so shitty to you..." Well my response will always be "Good guy finishes in the end" ;) sure enough is enough but they'll now when that time comes.
7) Ive been dating this same guy on and off ALL the time for almost 4 years. When is it gonna stop and just settle? Only God knows.. Anyway. He's been pretty ehhhh lately. At first i thought he was cheating. but when does he have time to? He works Publix latenight/morning crew and sleeps throughout the day. He gets annoyed when i talk about how i feel. Recently i've been surviving off crying and music. not so much crying. i've been through worse i guess. i'm stronger. But at the same time if only i knew what he was really up to, i'd feel better. Is he really just tired from work and paying bills? Is he really cheating? or has he lost interest in me? is it me? am i annoying? I guess i'll never know...
Anyway i'm off to supper be back on for my plans this summer. :)
