I almost forgot so much shit went down i gotta type it all down so it'll leave my memory.
Not long after my January 12, 2008 post eli and i broke up. he broke up with me. then not even a week later he started dating some chick named Amanda. It hurt like hell. didnt think that would happen but it did. Then he started talking and hanging with stefany after he dumped amanda cuz he "missed" me as he says. shortly when i went away to college at UNA i met another guy. His name is Mickel Magness. Yeah i still remember him lol. He was a cute guy and extremely smart but it didnt feel right when i hung out with him. especially now that eli was broken when he found out. so that ended, in the end eli and i started dating again. wow! what an episode that was an episode that shouldn't have happened...at all. but did. lol. gayness.
Summer plans:
Panama City Beach!- July 13-16 my first time at the beach :) Lose like hmmm about ten pounds maybe just five lol. Practice guard like crazy. dont wanna sit at the bleachers. Find a new job!! Claire's just may be driving me crazy. but man i'm gonna miss the 50% discount. & thats about it forreal :)
that was short and straight to point :D anyway thats about it for now. I havent talked to eli in almost 2 days he's angry so i guess i just needed someone to talk to. Typing away helps a butt load... :)
So it's time for my yearly update. lol. not really i do need to make more than just one post a day. So anyway, time has passed by and i'm no longer the 15 year old i was when i first discovered this blog site. I'm 19 and a half now. yep. almost 20. wow. i feel old. Anyway, struggles i dealt with when i was as you'd say a little bit "younger" seem almost stupid now. childish in a sense that i wanna share it with you. 1) I used to cry everyday over some guy i had the biggest crush on in 9th grade. 2) I used to think i'd grow up in acting cuz my brother chose directing as his career, i guess i figured he'd build my career up. 3) I struggled and cried and worked so hard to be in team that has had a great affect on me now but almost seems like a waste of time. 4) i used to be afraid of what awaited me after high school. 5) I tried hard to make friends not enemies. 6) work "used" to be a piece of cake at Taco Bell well compared to now. 7) When i first started blogging, i didnt have the slightest clue what having a boyfriend meant...
Now that i'm almost 20 i can now say that... 1) That high school 9th grade crush was almost funny. it wouldve never worked :) He's still a great friend to this day we dont talk much but his appearance and role in my life has changed me so far made me stronger but not so...you'll understand if you take a read at my other overly dramatic posts. lol. 2) Please... come on now... i'm an Entertainment media production major. :) Acting just wasn't for me.. at all... :). 3) Color guard was difficult in high school but it paid off. makes UNA color guard a piece of cake. but still a lot of hard hard work trust me. 4) I never thought i'd make it this far in life. sure i had my hopes and high dreams but who would've known they'd come true. now that i'm about to be in my second year at college i cant wait to see what awaits me in the near future. 5) That one went out the window long ago. lol. everyone has their enemies. some worse than others but shit happens right? :) Cassandra Moya still sucks big cock tho. lmfao. bitch. 6) I no longer work at TB in fact i've had 3 other jobs after that. one in which i still work at...Claire's. Ive been working at claire's for about a year and a month now and i still get treated like a baby that doesnt know anything. Yet, i know more than the store manager herself. and I dont get told anything till last minute. how does that make sense?! Paige that has been there 6 months already got promoted to the galleria mall in Birmingham. Sure she didnt take it she's only 19 and still lives at home but the opportunity... of having been offered such a great position...wow. i mean wow. i'm still a third key. not even lead third key. lol. and i've been loyal and nothing but dependent for them. It just sucks, everyone keeps asking me "Annabel...why do you take their crap? They're so shitty to you..." Well my response will always be "Good guy finishes in the end" ;) sure enough is enough but they'll now when that time comes. 7) Ive been dating this same guy on and off ALL the time for almost 4 years. When is it gonna stop and just settle? Only God knows.. Anyway. He's been pretty ehhhh lately. At first i thought he was cheating. but when does he have time to? He works Publix latenight/morning crew and sleeps throughout the day. He gets annoyed when i talk about how i feel. Recently i've been surviving off crying and music. not so much crying. i've been through worse i guess. i'm stronger. But at the same time if only i knew what he was really up to, i'd feel better. Is he really just tired from work and paying bills? Is he really cheating? or has he lost interest in me? is it me? am i annoying? I guess i'll never know...
Anyway i'm off to supper be back on for my plans this summer. :)
...i was lame back in the day lol well at least with my eli days lol. well yes yes we are back together and happier than ever. so i think im gonna start posting cute love stuff here instead of on my myspace cuz 1 my family dont get on blogger and 2 eli's friends wont make fun of him and 3 so i dont come off like im obsessed with eli when on my myspace i have stuff of him and on his he doesnt have a thing about me...lol. wow thats gay. so yeah im 18 now its sad how when i started blogger i was 14 maybe 15 something like that.
its me once again. so this week i dont know what to say. ive been pretty stressed out about my eli situation i mean it feels like he doesnt want to talk to me anymore. and i dont know if thats the case but i have to win him back. he texted me yesterday telling me he still loved me... what am i supposed to say? i love you too come back to me. gosh i sound like a pathetic desperate loser with nothing better to do. im just gonna move on and find something better if there is any. all he ever does is practice for his billions of bands... its like his band buddies are controlling his mind and telling him he cant have a life outside band practice. im not at all saying he's changed im just saying maybe he's telling himself a lie about me to make it easier to get over me. oh nevermind i forgot he's not telling himself a lie he's writing music for his billions of bands. life without him sucks. he's pissed off at me and i hate it. its like im pushing him away so im just gonna stop talking to him for a while. if i lose him then oh well im the biggest dumbest bitch ever alive. ill just find someone else thats worth my damn fucking time!!!! i hate him one fucking second then i love him the next!!!! SHIT! my LIFE fucking sucks! okay so im done for now... :) im super duper happy now...cant you fucking tell.
okay so i have alot going on in my life right now. in school im doing great i mean i have really good grades i just got done with the most stressful thing in high school...the research paper. the paper everyone dreads in high school. thank god im done with it and i dont have to deal with it anymore. and Algebra 2 with trig. ain't that bad either. so school is pretty cool right now i just cant wait to get the hell out of decatur high school. yes! only the rest of this year left lol. and as for colorguard...lets just say that the drama is never gonna end till colorguard ends. come on you have 11 girls in one field for what seems like never ending hours! how can anyone expect for there not to be drama? And not to mention it was more than just 11 girls but then shelley, alex, victoria, judy, and jasmine quit. Even hannah gillman one of the most talented girls in guard quit. and cassie, marie, and breanna are on the verge of quitting. you'd figure the instructors would have something to do about like oh i dont know chill out a little bit! they over work us and then not to mention all the girls like to do in colorguard is bitch and moan about all the crap they put us thru and that makes other guard members pissed and then they bitch and all of a sudden become two faced and start drama like little pathetic immature cry baby sons of bitches. lol its kinda funny at the same time tho i must admit. and marie got her solo taken away due to her bad attitude ??? i never noticed a bad attitude in marie. and now i have the solo. and honestly i think cassie is a little pissed off about that... but i dont care. not trying to sound like a bitch but i did deserve the solo alot more than cassie did. and so yeah colorguard is... pretty fucking amazing. lol. but also really stressful. especially if your dealing with heartbreak like me. but i know i shouldn't complain about it cuz alot more ppl have it worse. i mean my best friend delia lost a brother july 2007 and she's been thru ALOT more as well. Dang i should have killed her ex boyfriend while i had the chance!! lol. i admit she's strong...very very strong. the strongest person i know. even ppl that know about everything tell me personally that she's the strongest person they know. she's amazing to have been able to put up with it and she knows God is with her to help her through it. okay one more thing i have to say about it... FIFTEEN YEARS AIN'T ENOUGH!!! lol. okay so my friend just called my friend daniel queer. haha Delia ur gay! okay so now to proceed with the main problem...my ex. okay so we were doing great for about a year and a half. i mean sure we had our problems i would do what any other girl would do and throw my uber bitchy fits. and yes i admit i was wrong and i shouldnt have done it and we broke up a crap load of times. you know those "we're over!!" okay 5 seconds later "im sorry i love you we're not over" lol it was just stupid childish behavior i had. and it was about two months ago when it happened. we broke up. i thought it one of those times again but it turns out it wasnt. he left me for good. i mean i broke up with him but he actually left. in a way looking back at my behavior i dont blame him. if he wants nothing to do with me then dont...it will hurt me but as much as it does i cant do anything about it. i mean its up to him. not just me. but yeah anyways, he left and then it hit me. of course you may already know what hit me...yes yes depression. i called him and asked him out numerous of times and i cried what felt like all my tears. i cried to a point where i literally felt i couldnt take it anymore. i wanted to end what i once thought of as a pathetic life. i wanted it over. i didnt want to go thru that pain again. and i sure as hell didnt want him to go thru that pain. i wouldnt doubt it if he did while we were dating. i was horrible. and as much as i want to take it back i cant. i love the hell out of him and i wont forget him but what can i do? anyways, while under depression i would call him (yeah not the smartest thing to do) and cry and he would get annoyed and tell me things ive never in life heard him say to me like "shut the hell up" "fuck off" leave me alone" and stuff like "im blocking ur number" and i would say usually say something pathetic like "i love you" and "please dont do this" well anyways i was put through alot and all my friends kept telling me that if i just let him go and stopped calling him then everything would be fine and ill get something good in return. so after days maybe weeks of convincing me i did. i just let him go. cuz while i was in an emo state he would hang out with me every once in a while and kiss me and make me feel like he wanted me back and for what? for nothing ill tell ya lol. he didnt take me back. so anyways, i left him alone and a week ago he called me. two days later we started texting each other. just as friends and then this past sunday we talked on the phone ...for an hour and 22 minutes lol. so what if i know the exact time delia!!! gosh!!! and after talking as friends he wanted to hang out okay we both did. so we did. it was fun we watched big daddy and then it came. he told me he loved me and that he still thinks of our future and that he wants me and only me and he told me i shouldnt worry about any other girl cuz im all he thinks about. he called names i havent heard in a long time such as baby and princess. God!!! he said so many amazing things ive been dying to hear. and then after hangin with him he told me he'd call me that night. well guess what? he didnt. lol. actually i havent heard from him since. and its wednesday if i do believe. so i dont know what to do anymore im confused and yeah my life sucks no no wait...love in general sucks. lol. ill update later about the situation and what not.
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[Hook 1] Fergalicious (Fergalicious) But I ain't promiscuous And if you was suspicious All that shit is fictitious I blow kisses (mmmwwahhh) That puts them boys on rock, rock And they be lining down the block just to watch what I got (four, tres, two, uno)
[Chorus] So delicious (It's hot, hot) So delicious (I put them boys on rock, rock) So delicious (they wanna slice of what I got) Fergalicious (t-t-t-t-t-tasty, tasty)
[Verse 2] Fergalicious def-, Fergalicious def-, Fergalicious def- [def fading echo] Fergalicious definition make them boys go crazy They always claim they know me Comin' to me call me Stacy (Hey Stacy) I'm the F to the E, R, G the I the E And can't no other lady put it down like me
[Hook 2] I'm Fergalicious (so delicious) My body stay vicious I be up in the gym just working on my fitness He's my witness (oooh wee) I put yo' boy on rock rock And he be lining down the block just to watch what I got (four, tres, two, uno)
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[Hook 3] Delicious (So delicious) But I ain't promiscuous And if you was suspicious All that shit is fictitious I blow kisses (mmmwwahhh) That puts them boys on rock, rock And they be lining down the block just to watch what I got (got, got, got) Four, tres, two, uno My body stay vicious I be up in the gym just working on my fitness He's my witness (oooh wee) I put yo' boy on rock rock And he be lining down the block just to watch what I got (four, tres, two, uno)
[Chorus] So delicious (aye, aye, aye, aye) So delicious (aye, aye, aye, aye) So delicious (aye, aye, aye, aye) I'm Fergalicious, t-t-t-t-t tasty, tasty
It's so delicious (aye, aye, aye, aye) So delicious (aye, aye, aye, aye) So delicious (aye, aye, aye, aye) I'm Fergalicious, t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t (aye, aye, aye, aye)
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Ok since no one seems to be celebrating this month i guess i will. i really want to celebrate by going to the 8 Films 2 Die For thing. so i guess im gonna go!!!! of and if u dont like halloween ur a lame-o! well heres a creepy story for ya supposedly its true but ill let u decide.
From: Angie Myers (myersk@ameritech.net) Newsgroups: alt.folklore.ghost-stories Subject: Grandma's story Date: 3 Mar 1995 19:04:51 GMT
Greetings everyone,
The story was told to me by my Grandma when I was a kid.
My great-great-grandfather had gone out to spend part of an evening to partake in converstion and an ale with his friends. (a night out with the boys). The time came when it was time to start heading home. He was happily singing songs and riding on his horse and buggy that night, when he encountered something laying in the middle of a crossroad. As he got closer he noticed that this was a baby bundled up in blankets.
He was outraged to think who in the world would leave a newborn-baby in the middle of the road like this. He decided to pick the newborn baby up and place it in the back of the buggy, and take it home and report the incident to the proper authorities the next morning. So he continued he journey home, it wasn't until a while later he heard a voice calling his name, he kind of was looking around and saw no one for miles around.
The was nothing but farmland, some trees bushes, but not one person. He continued his trip then he heard, "Daaaaadeeeeee, daaaadeeeee, look." He blamed his hearing things to the last brewski he had. Again, "daaadeee, daaaadeeee,looook, look at me". "daaadeeee, looooook, look at my little teeth!" Well by this time he was a little spooked and especially seeing that the horse was scared and nervous.
He turned around and to his HORROR the baby had fangs and was laughing and smiling at him, while saying, "look, daaadeee, look- I have teeth." ( I am getting the cold chills down my spine as I am typing this story, strange, because I am sitting next to the heater- Now back to the story)
At this point, the horse was going crazy, he decided to pick this thing up and threw it off his buggy- it disappeared before it hit the ground! He was scared S--tless, and drove out of there as fast as his horse would go. He had heard that this part of the country was haunted but he never believed it until that night. He claimed that what he was was the devil or a demon.
There was another story my Grandma told me. She and her parents were on the way to or from town during the day. They encountered a rather large black goat on the road. The weird thing about this goat was as soon as approuched it, the damn thing went on its hind legs and would not let them pass. My Great-grand father quickly took the whip and tried to scare it away. Everyone was in a panic, I goat ran off and disapeared in as soon as my Great-grand mother starting praying.
Alot of the towns people claimed to have seem and heard weird things in that part of the road.
I guess the moral of this story is don't drink and drive.
Angie:)
if that freaked u out maybe u should check out more freaky stories on this website
1. Hugs from behind. 2. Grab her hand when you walk next to each other (don't make her grab yours). 3. When standing, wrap your arms around her. 4. Cuddle with her. 5. DON'T FORCE HER TO DO ANYTHiNG. 6. Write little notes. 7. Compliment her Honestly. 8. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible. 9. Be super sweet to her. 10. Call her at night to wish her sweet dreams. 11. Comfort her when she cries. 12.Wipe away her tears 13. lOVE HER WiTH All YOUR HEART. 14. Pick her up and flirt with her (she'll scream and say put me down but really she loves it). 15. Be a gentleman (hold the door for her). 16. Don't let your friends talk trash about her, it'll get back 2 her!& DONT ever act diff in front of ur friends than u r when its just u and her!!!! 17. Take her for a long walk at night! 18. Always bring a blanket where ever you go outside to comfort her and hold her close 19. NEVER liE TO HER!!!!!! because then she will think everything you ever said to her was a lie, even "i love you"
Pretty much im just me...sweet little innocent me that everyone loves and adores and thinks "hey...thats Annabel!" when i walk by...."sweet little innocent, quiet Annabel Barboza!"
Fools...they have no idea what power i posess! I WILL CONSUME THEM ALL WITH MY EVIL MINION OF SQUIRRELS!
